What a buzz!!!! Another 1,5 I am so in the groove and feeling strong. I was 100.5 kilos yesterdays weigh in - so close to being in the nineties I can taste it. This morning I was exactly 100 kilos WOO HOO
I so thank me and Mel and fellow Kiwi Transformers. What got me up and running and over the line was exercise. I committed ahead of time and set myself up to swim Friday night, take the dog for huge walk after the vets Saturday morning and meet fellow Kiwi 12wbt'ers on Sunday for a walk. I knew that after those three sessions I would feel strong and energized and it went according to plan. By the time Sunday morning came, I was so pumped that even though it was pouring with rain, I still went. I got soaked but w burnt 500 cals.
What Michelle says is just so true - If you plan ahead then you have a plan to go by and chances are you will stick to it because you have set your intention and got the small details right.
What I realized is that I have 10 weeks to go and even if I only lose 11 kilos over that 10 weeks, I will be in the 80's for the first time in over a decade. All I have to do is persevere and stick to the program. I can do that. I can and I will. I choose to keep going. I commit to keep going. I will get there. I can see myself enjoying Xmas and feeling strong and being healthier and slimmer. It is going to happen. And I just dont know why I didn't believe I couldn't do it before. Why did I think I didn't deserve it.
I am not sure what has changed but something fundamental and deep has shifted. I feel that it is time to step up and stop hiding from what could be and instead embrace what is. It is weird but powerful. I feel the strength and awesomeness of the potential of me and I am not sure why it frightened me in the past - but I admit it did.
I am sick of giving up on me and I deserve better from myself and I plan to live up to me - and that is the truth. What is the saying - nothing tastes as good as being in control feels.
I have no doubt there will be hiccups along the way. But who cares. Life gets in the way sometimes but there is a difference this time. I am over the wallowing and hiding and playing down who I could be.
Wow it feels amazing....and all i have had tonight is a cup of tea!!!!! I promise :)
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